Last night around 3:30 I woke to a very loud crash coming from the other side of our house. Joel shot out of bed, flung open the bedroom door, and charged across the house. Meanwhile, I sat in our bed trembling and praying that there wasn’t a scary man in our house! Turns out, and I’m not surprised, that it was a metal shelf that was mounted to our laundry room wall that had waaay too much stuff on it. I was so glad to see the sun this morning and to have the peace of knowing we made it through the night safe and sound. I’ve been thinking about last night and Joel’s response. He chose to, without fear, jump up and confront whatever could have been invading our lives. He took a risk! He had no idea what was in our laundry room but he was willing to give up his life and the security of our bedroom in order to protect us. This is love. This is friendship. In the Bible Jesus says there is no greater love than for a man to lay down his life for his friends. I think that statement is loaded with the possibility of risk. I am learning when you love something you go all in for it. You risk it all.
Now onto another subject, the house, our beloved Rescued Home. We are well acquainted with risk when it comes to working on our house. I feel like every new project we take on we say, “ok we are going all in on this one and will not stop until it is completed.”
We started on the outside of our house in October 2010 and it is not yet finished. We thought it would only take 6 months and now, a year and a half later, we are still chipping away at it. This is definitely a labor of love! Other than repairing the foundation, this has been the hardest part of the restoration so far which makes working on it really unappealing when we have free time. But, over Spring Break we buckled down and knocked out quite a bit.
Here you can see the aluminum siding that covered the original siding. When the aluminum siding was put up all of the trim work was taken down so we are having to replace all of it.
We have decided that painting is not the hard part but all the prep work before. Thanks to a paint sprayer we can knock out the painting once the sanding and priming is completed.
Joel also installed this lovely dishwasher that we bought nearly two years ago. It is our habit to head for the clearance section every time we go to a home improvement store. We purchased this beauty for 75% off the original price!
I love it! It is so much quieter than our old one and actually cleans the dishes!
Back to risk taking. What are you being asked to take a risk on?
A few months ago I heard this quote from an author, “God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him.” These words have had me daily wrestling with what my life looks like. If I’m going to say I’m a disciple of Jesus Christ then this confession requires that my main goal in life is to glorify God. Glorify would mean to exalt Him, make Him the most seen thing in my life. What does this mean? How does it apply in my life? Am I satisfied in God? Do I even love God? He says if you love me then you will obey me. Is that how I gain satisfaction? I came to the realization this morning that I am only satisfied when I am giving up my life. In my mind, MY life is everything I think I have a right to, the pursuit of life, liberty and happiness. I just love how God’s ways are so upside down yet, when I am faced with “giving up my life” it is a really hard choice. It seems as God allows me to pursue things that I think will bring satisfaction, I always find those things falling short of the satisfaction that comes when I obey Jesus’ teachings. I also see that God is a loving Father and when I choose to give up the things I think I want or need so that he is glorified, He is faithful to satisfy me.
The other night I was talking with a friend who had just read my post, Spring Sprucing. They jokingly said, “When I read your blog I feel I lead a substandard life.” Then with laughter said, “I think I need a potting table!” We laughed at all of it and I was a little flattered that someone would feel their lives are substandard to mine. Then I felt like I wanted to puke! I know my friend was complimenting me and I’m so grateful that they freely offered love and approval but it left me feeling unsatisfied. I have felt the same things after looking at other people’s blogs. I have thought “if I could just have that or do that or my house look like that then I would be satisfied.” I have even thought I would be satisfied if someone could look at my things or life and desire them. I have desired fame but the other night proved that perspective wrong.
I hope through this blog that I am not encouraging those same feelings in you. Please don’t feel I lead a superior life free of struggle and normalcy. I am no more gifted than you. I have not been offered any greater gift than what has been offered to you. My house and business are my art and if God wanted to take it all away I hope I would freely let him. I thank you that through this blog you have let me into your lives. Thank you for letting me ramble on as I wrestle with the purpose and meaning for my life.
I sit here on the verge of tears, saying oh God I repent of ever glorifying myself over you. You are the only famous One. I am learning that chasing after the latest trends, a well decorated house, a successful business, status, friendships, the American Dream, even my own dreams does not satisfy the deepest longings of my soul. God alone is enough. In Him I am most satisfied.
Things have slowed down quite a bit around here. Spring Break is in full swing and all the students in town have cleared out. I haven’t left the house since Sunday and I think I’m about to go crazy! I’ve been covered in paint and stain trying to finish up a project I’ve been working on for a customer. I will post pics once I’m finished.
We fixed our clocks by springing forward on Sunday, which has completely thrown off my internal clock. The arrival of Spring has inspired me to spruce up mi casa. My mom bought me a subscription to Country Living as one of my Christmas gifts and my first copy finally came in the mail this week. When I saw the cover I knew I wanted to recreate it in my house.
I love potting tables and if I had a garden or any kind of yard with plants:)
I would have to have a real potting table. I found these amazing ones online.
I love ’em! I love how organic and earthy they are. I would feel like a real gardener if I had one.
Here is my version in my dining room.
What do you think? Happy Spring Break everyone!